Today, I’ll be making one of the toughest decisions in my life. I never expected that this day would come, that I’ll grow a year older and be asked to decide something as complicated as this. I just find it hard and painful to let go of the people and things I have grown to love for the past three years. I hate goodbyes but I guess moving on and getting out of my comfort zone would force me to do better, and hopefully, climb a notch higher in achieving my dreams in life. I want to believe that there is a whole universe waiting to be explored outside UP, and if I miss out on this opportunity and wait until my next birthday, I might not have the drive and courage to leave. I don’t want to end up like most of the staff here, spending ten or twenty years of their lives in the university waiting for the break that would never come. Some people would raise eyebrows for sure, what am I complaining about when I am here in (arguably) one of the best environment to work and grow as an individual. But I don’t want to be contented, not yet, not at this age. I want to explore things and go places and meet new people. I feel that I have a lot of energy to burn and I am told to sit, relax, and eat popcorn. Maybe when I turned fifty I’d want to do that, but now I don’t feel that I’m cut out for such a laidback life. I have started to stack up my three-year collection of books, pictures, and whatnots, I guess this is really goodbye.

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I'm taking some time off from blogging to take stock on what's happening in my life, my beloved country, and the big, bad world. That sounds like too grown up for me :)